Like a Setting Sun
a cage in a cage
you could find me here
staring out the window
watching the alley play
feeling fine
cause ive come a long way
i never let you know
at first i missed you being here
but now i dont mind
cause i got the key to my own incarceration
and i built it with my own two hands
youd understand
why i had this made
a cage in a cage
boyfriend
i saw your boyfriend yesterday
so i thought that id stop by again before you go away
im not here to drag around
i dont feel any special need to be with anyone but
i dont think that im a fool
im just here, thats all i know, nothing else is true so
between you and me its fine
this is the greatest kind of fantasy whenever we kiss
you can always pretend im your boyfriend
whisper all your secrets in my ears
close your eyes and pretend im your boyfriend
and ill never tell
this time
i wonder if i blew my head away
what words my suicide would say
im sure that you and the rest would misunderstand
and think i needed someone there to hold my hand
i guess id fuel a fire id hate to fan
another statistics used in a teenage culture ban
theyre all jealous i know but thats not what they say
shedding saltless tears washing the blood away
i guess ill wait to slice from side to side
if nothings more redundant than suicide
but i imagine the note id write to leave behind
just in case i find a reason to change my mind
i wouldnt doubt myself at all
id be ready to feel the axe fall
but im afraid that when my heads cut free
id still see
lying there
staring eternally
cause theres times you send me to hell
theres times i think you know me too well
and theres a fine line
i see it clearly this time
within
a knife in my palm pacifies me
the blade is honed, the shaft waves in the air
ive justified my lies
in my mind and in my eyes
but it burns in my hands
the life in my palm satisfies me
the warm blood turning crimson in the air
while respect, charm and trust
disolve and fall to dust
and leave you afraid
i knew in time id find a stranger
nows the time to tear my fragile mind
my skin
my heart
trembling within
waiting
waiting waiting
i know shell be here
then shell be gone
never here at all
youll be here
and youll be gone
like you were never here at all
air swirls around me
whirls without a care
and i dont feel the same
god rides again
he calls the huron valley jerusalem
i guess that makes yspilanti bethlehem
he rents an apartment there with the holy ghost
its worth the price they pay or almost
born in the northwest south of olympia
renamed the entire region gemorrah
moved to the great lake state to free his mind
and gets along with the ghost most of the time
this is the land of jesus
you better get out of his way
if this is jesus
get down on your knees and pray
say
dont start by saying im the same
dont make excuses for the lies you say
they never caught you stealing
one winterd send you realing
make you crazy
did you loose my letter in a drawer
stuff it in your glovebox with your boyfriends cards
dont waste my time evading
your misdirected baiting
makes me crazy
inside me somethings freezing
i feel my patience peeling
i go crazy
i say what you want
i say what you need
i say if you leave me ill betray you
in your head
ive been learning how to say more
saying nothing at all
you think i do it to drive you crazy
make you feel small
seems theres what i say then theres whats said
im pounding your drum
wearing out your shoes
taking the choices away from
the judges and the tv news
i justify myself instead
you better hide your dark side
never let your guard slide
im gonna look into your eyes and see
the truth that lies there
and the truth will kill and youll be dead
in your head
i wouldn't be caught alive
velleity
theres a green pill on the ground
calling me
it rests in a nest of dust
tiny white letters facing me
its calling me
if i could stretch my leg out
i might touch it with my toe
then i could roll it to my hand
and stuff it in my mouth
cause its calling me
once i had a wonderful girl
she would whisper "reeb i love you"
but i would push away and laugh
tears filling her eyes, green
like pills, calling me
just a green pill on the ground
calling me
blow off the dust with a puff
tiny white letters facing me
calling me
a year ago
it doesnt seem a year ago today
wake me up and tell me that youve gone away
beleive in me i know
ill beleive you anyway
you always look so pale in the sun
yours and mine, upon a time cant be done
beleive in me i know
promises fade one by one
walking down academy alone
found something caught between the cobblestones
believe in me, i know
ive seen our gravestones
the place behind the liquor store was mine
we were working hard at wasting time
beleive in me, i know
in the window a light was shining
dont know why ill never lie to you
as if im going down and adding you
believe in me, i know
my lies are mostly true
and ill never try to
never find who we were
understand
or what i am